Difficulties creating a syllabus

I know that I should have a syllabus for this course already. But since I have taught it only three times, I have changed it each time. So I do not have it organized yet. Also because this new syllabus in blended with online classes and f2f, it has to be reorganized anyway. I can not do a lot of the reading activities from TOEFL and listening activities with debates in class. Also I have to include more collaborative work which I do not have clear in my mind yet on how to accomplish that with my activities. I have too much in my head now, and since it is not clear yet, I get overwhelmed with all the ideas, but do not seem to know how to put them in order for this course. I still get headaches thinking of this syllabus, and I still wake up at night with ideas in my mind. Thank goodness, I have learned to control the high blood pressure that I had every time I walked past my computer screen.!!!!

I know I am capable of creating this. I have high expectations with the continuing courses that they will help me to put my ideas in order.

The biggest problem that I encountered and can not find the solution yet after three weeks, is how to upload an image into the moodle. I have tried so many times that I do not want to do it anymore. I want it to be over and done with. I hate repeating and repeating unsuccessful attempts.

As of now, at least I feel like I tried to do my best, even though I feel frustrated knowing it is not what I want this syllabus to be. I will continue.